i lost my soul at 10 monthes old and i'v bean trying to earn it back ever since. it only gets harder the more i try.

what the fuck is this thing for anyway? don't you feel like a super hero. dude all i can see is your nuts. hey! this is your ass.... mmmmm purple. chan hates black & roll. bar crawls rule. smoothest taquela shot ever. beer city. laevit wasted. dave wasted. alex wasted. me wasted. every one wasted. huge spicy hot dog from 7 11 with too much chili cheese and mustard on it. best hot dog ever. drove home a little tipsy the long way. woke up to like 7 people in suits walking around my house. the realtor saw the prince of darkness in the hallway and ghasped hahaha.

filthy movies, $1.50 pints, magma standing up, white trash goin nuts, old bikers saying we should be on ozz fest, me and mike making lude comments about the nekid girl on screen while she is sitting right behind us. awsomm time!!!!!

who cuts that rabits hair? thats crazy! i'm Brian Fellows.

aparantly i am now in a rock and roll band with some 40 something year old dudes from work. wierd wierd wierd. what am i doing with my life huh? and whats more is i think there christians!! eeew. oh well the one guitarist dude can shred hard and ill take any chance i can get to jam with people who can play. since i never realy rock out with magma any more. though that would be alot better, i miss that thit.

the day i found out that my hero Levar Burton was indeed also Jordie Laforge i almost shit myself right in my pants. the sad part is almost shitting myself and learning that awsome fact had nothing to do with eachother.

my new tattoo is better than any tattoo any of you have ever gotten. exept for magma's MAMGA, and pauls void stamp. its not a clever one like those, but its sweet as hell :) you'l have to see it in person. sorry no pics hahaha

does it make me a wierdo if i saw eraserhead and thought of it as a touching social commentary. i almost got choked up a little at some points :)

MMMMMMAAAAAAGGGGGGMMMMMMMAAAAAA!!!!!!!

ok so i fucking cant stand these "im tired of the way i'v been doing things and im gonna make a change" tipe posts. they anoy the shit out of me. but here goes anyway. as of now i am dedicating 2 or three days a week entirely to working on art. im gonna turn part of the third floor into a studio. and im going to get my ass in gear. i have been a worthless waste of talent for as long as i can remember, and i refuse to make droping out of art school an excuse to give up on my self any longer. someone once told me that i dont "need" art school to be succesfull. well its time to prove that shit. i'm sure every one will understand when i cant do things as often. well hahaha i'v kind of been out of the loop these days anyway but thats my own fault. i think maybe i was subconsiously doing it so that it wouldnt be so much of a shock when i start working at my art. and it will be just that. no longer a hobie or pass time. i will make it my part time second job, and i will not give up. fuck the way i used to be. i have a new and amaising motovation. i feel diferant then i ever have bafore and it is fucking killer. baby i love you so much and i hope you will understand when i have to work. and dont worrie im not going to be shutting you or any one out on those days. please feel free to come over and give me some company while i work. you are more than welcome. just dont expect me to be verry fun :) oh and fyi i will most likely be calling on a few of you now and then to borrow your likenesses :) that is all, and good night.

allot!!!

got pulled over tonight on my way to work. aparently i was going around 80 in a 45 and i had a tail light out oh and an expired sticker and a parking ticket sitting in plain vew that the cop also commented on hahaha so im sure now your expecting me to say sone of a bitch now i have to pay this hondred something doller ticket and all this crap. rong!! i didnt evan get a warning. i must be cute or something:) im a loner doty im a rebel.

george bush has shit for brains. no realy its true i saw it my self. oh and hitler was a jesus freek, the pope is a nazi devil worshiper and satan is a jew with nipple rings:) i love the pigs they kill and kill again and get away with it!!!

thats right i said it. 4 dvds and a t-hirt for about 20 bucks cant be bad :) oh and apoctolypto totally kicks ass. makes me want to put waights in my ears, skarr my self, get some sweet tribals and run around naked with a big club!!! just a hint if you ever find yourelf being chassed around by a blood thirsty hord. throwing bee hives can be a verry handy skill.

peter boil is dead. i am pissed

on the list of best text meseges a dude can ever get from his girlfriend while tuck working 3rd shift "im blasting motorhead and drinking rum in your honer" ranks verry verry high!!!!!! gina you are a beutifull peron inide and out :):)

this looks just gay enough for me to post. so get gay with me and do it now!!! :)

What would you do if:


[1] I committed suicide:.
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:

[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:

Other:

[1] Who are you?:
[2] Are we friends?:
[3] When and how did we meet?:
[4] How have I affected you?:
[5] What do you think of me?:
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:
[8] Do you love me?:
[9] Have I ever hurt you?:
[10] Would you hug me?:
[11] Would you kiss me?:
[12] Would you fuck me?:
[13] Would you marry me?:
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?:
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?:
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.:
[18] Am I loveable?:
[19] How long have you known me?:
[20] Describe me in one word.:
[21] What was your first impression?:
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?:
[23] What do you think my weakness is?:
[24] Do you think I'll get married?:
[25] What about me makes you happy?:
[26] What about me makes you sad?:
[27] What reminds you of me?:
[28] What's something you would change about me?:
[29] How well do you know me?:
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?:
[32] Are we close?:
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:

i hate having unfinished tattoos. the fucking suspence is killing me.

i love texting lexy when she cant sleep at night and having her fall asleep on me. she is without a doubt one of the best people i know and ive never evan met her. i hope to god i dont die without giving her a big hug for giving me someone to talk to when im stuck at work and going out of my mind. the awesome will never die my far away friend :)

ive bean trying not to leave any lame depressing journal entrys lateley but ihave to say i am bumming right now. because instead of partying on a friday night i was sleeping. iwas sleeping because the greedy company i work for decides whatidowith my life when everthey want. if they sayi have to work on theweekend i better doitor i get writen up. so lame. andthats why i am at work right now from 3-7 on a saterday morning. i love my life. the only good thing aboutthis is that its time and a half and i could realy use the cash. hahaha ive bean avoiding it long enough too. yes i have evan bean known to to pay upwards of 40 bucks to someone to work over time for me. ofcoarse that was when i lived with my parents and could throw money around though. oh well 4 hours at around $24.00 an hour aint to bad so i dont know why im evan complaining. :)